Monday, February 05, 2007
sian sia. now in school. nothiing better do leii. frend ask miiee give him testi which ii own him verii long lerr. hahas!~ lolx hahas. so sian leii. mm. ii should updates on wherr ii go on sundaee. ii mean last sundaee. frend ask miiee to update too de.
okayss. ii went escape last sundaee. denn is like so stupid lorr. ii paid $16.50 to vomit and angry. stupid larr. ii went there wiif my ite frend. yan ping, grace, huda and sylvester. we even sit outside the escape for a 5 mins long de campfire. lolx. to decide whether wanna go in anot. ii regret going in larr. is like goiin jiu straight play 3 times of the donno wad's that call and 2 times the rainbow. ii wann vomit lerr larr. hahas!~ after jiu go in to the haunted house. ii was shouting like hell larr. the people over there keep scaring miiee larr. and my frend also. wth. this one still okay. denn we go play go kart. this made miiee damn super angry. there's a boii. little boii. for overseas de. play that also. when's it's time to stop. he purposly drive super damn fast denn make a sudden brake. denn is like bank on miiee and my head band super dman hard on the seats. fu_k lorr. super damn pain. forget it. ii donn wann to say abt it liao. after that we go out and meet my another ite frend, named, zhi yan. she's so cute. hahas!~
denn we went to subway for dinner. ii dinn eat. denn my this frend, SYLVESTER. damn wad lorr. ii juss say that's a guy inside handsome only denn he jiu say help miiee take number. wth. no funny okay sly. hahas!~ lolx
after dinner jiu go play pool liao. my first time playing sia. so damn ps lorr. hahas!~. anyway. ii enjoy. hahas!~ that's all.
pictures time.
opps. the pics is in my lappie. not in my this com. pics other daee.
okayss. ii went escape last sundaee. denn is like so stupid lorr. ii paid $16.50 to vomit and angry. stupid larr. ii went there wiif my ite frend. yan ping, grace, huda and sylvester. we even sit outside the escape for a 5 mins long de campfire. lolx. to decide whether wanna go in anot. ii regret going in larr. is like goiin jiu straight play 3 times of the donno wad's that call and 2 times the rainbow. ii wann vomit lerr larr. hahas!~ after jiu go in to the haunted house. ii was shouting like hell larr. the people over there keep scaring miiee larr. and my frend also. wth. this one still okay. denn we go play go kart. this made miiee damn super angry. there's a boii. little boii. for overseas de. play that also. when's it's time to stop. he purposly drive super damn fast denn make a sudden brake. denn is like bank on miiee and my head band super dman hard on the seats. fu_k lorr. super damn pain. forget it. ii donn wann to say abt it liao. after that we go out and meet my another ite frend, named, zhi yan. she's so cute. hahas!~
denn we went to subway for dinner. ii dinn eat. denn my this frend, SYLVESTER. damn wad lorr. ii juss say that's a guy inside handsome only denn he jiu say help miiee take number. wth. no funny okay sly. hahas!~ lolx
after dinner jiu go play pool liao. my first time playing sia. so damn ps lorr. hahas!~. anyway. ii enjoy. hahas!~ that's all.
pictures time.
opps. the pics is in my lappie. not in my this com. pics other daee.
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11:36 PM
Sunday, February 04, 2007
haiis. ii'm simply tiired. my heart only contain pain. wherr's my happiness? why why why? my mind is full of why? can you tell miiee wherr's my happiness. ii'm jus feeling sadd. why 16 years lerr. and ii'm currently studying in my new sch. ite. but why no changes? is jus full of saddness? yarr, there's juss a little happiness in it. but most of the time. ii'm juss feeling, simply stress and tiired. my heart is bleeding. but no one knows. my heart is in pain. but no one knows. no one cann see that my cries. no one can tell that ii'm sadd&lonely. ii'm tiired simply tiired. seriously.
did ii enjoy todaee? ii also donno. feeling stress-up and. if ii'm in mental hospital, denn my parents will happy is it? ii'm really tiired and madd. even ii'm having high fever my parents also donn care. ii dinn eat medicine. because my parents donn even care abt my life. why do ii care? ii'm not hurting myself or my life. ii donno how to explain. ii'm fine lerr. how do cheer up ii also donno. ii only know how to act happy. and how to control my tears.
vivien. is jus a simply gurl. who juss need a simply care and concern. cause a little care and concern she also donn have from herr parents. tat's why frend are always important to miiee. even when they betray miiee, backstabb miiee. ii still treat them as my important frend. but donn take advantage of it. ii've gone thru alot. even if you betray miiee or backstabb. without people telling miiee. ii also will know. donn hurt miiee any more. if you really hurt miiee. denn juss donn talk to miiee. donn come in to my life.
ii'm juss a simple gurl. who wann's a simple and happy life. 16 years 1 mths and 4 daees of saddness, tiired, darkness and lonliness life lerr. enough lerr. ii've enough lerr. not happy wiif miiee. juss come to miiee and tell straight at miiee. and get it clear.
ii juss need a smile. if you can't give miiee and you only can give miiee headache denn get out of my life. cause ii'm tiired of that.
did ii enjoy todaee? ii also donno. feeling stress-up and. if ii'm in mental hospital, denn my parents will happy is it? ii'm really tiired and madd. even ii'm having high fever my parents also donn care. ii dinn eat medicine. because my parents donn even care abt my life. why do ii care? ii'm not hurting myself or my life. ii donno how to explain. ii'm fine lerr. how do cheer up ii also donno. ii only know how to act happy. and how to control my tears.
vivien. is jus a simply gurl. who juss need a simply care and concern. cause a little care and concern she also donn have from herr parents. tat's why frend are always important to miiee. even when they betray miiee, backstabb miiee. ii still treat them as my important frend. but donn take advantage of it. ii've gone thru alot. even if you betray miiee or backstabb. without people telling miiee. ii also will know. donn hurt miiee any more. if you really hurt miiee. denn juss donn talk to miiee. donn come in to my life.
ii'm juss a simple gurl. who wann's a simple and happy life. 16 years 1 mths and 4 daees of saddness, tiired, darkness and lonliness life lerr. enough lerr. ii've enough lerr. not happy wiif miiee. juss come to miiee and tell straight at miiee. and get it clear.
ii juss need a smile. if you can't give miiee and you only can give miiee headache denn get out of my life. cause ii'm tiired of that.
UR NAME HERE
6:59 AM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
hahas!~ ii admit ii'm vain. and this are all my frends and myself. haiis. this is the third week in my new sch lerr. but ii donno why. ii'm sadd, scared, angry and happy. darkness, loneliness and saddness. ii still have it in my new sch. my life dinn change at all. now ii gonna block abt the past 2 weeks in sch and after sch thingy. in sch first.
- first daee. thought of changing class de. but can't.
cause the class haven confirm there's how many people in the class. and happen nothing much. jus simply lonely in that new class and new friends. and fadil is different class from miiee. actually we two get to know 2 new friends named, rebecca and candice. hahas!~ cause they sit beside miiee. that daee ii sit at calss TA. but later when taking attendance there's no my name. and at denn ii denn realise that ii actally TC student. toursim have a total of 3 class. hahas!~ no pai seh meh. super lonely there sia.
- second daee. started to know some of my classmates. and other new frend from other class, named, stanley, wei lun, annabelle(donno spell correct anot), khoe nee and vanessa. khor nee is my babe. actually ii know her since the first daee of sch. cause during interview that time. ii already saw her and tok to her lerr. is jus that we dinn take number onlii. hahas!~ ohh yarr. first daee got the stupid dance show. really damn sucks larr. hahas!~ continue the story of second daee. we got the lesson resume according to timetable. and is boring larr. cause no books. denn after luch got all those stupid tok larr. ii was so angry lorr.
- third daee. sian. went into class. one of my frend, named sylvester. pass miiee a letter from my form teacher. saying that if ii wann to change class, please write a letter including my name, nric and etc. and ii was like totally shock. and thinking. wth. ii started to know my classmates lerr denn the chance of changing class denn come. wtf man. haiis. but ii still wrote the lettter. and hand in. but after ii hand in. my classmates one by one ask miiee to stay. but frend from other class ask miiee to change. but ii regreted for not changing. later in the part ii will tell you why.
- fourth daee. nothing much. lesson as per normal. and ii know a guy. but ii tell you. ii stead wiif him without knowing him well. cause is like we know for 3 hrs denn jiu stead liao. but one week later break liao. and ii dinn feel hurt when he ask for break but his action hurts miiee alot. haiis. but no matter wad ii can say ii love him alot although ii jus know him for less denn 3 hrs but during the daee we spend together. ii love it alot. the daee after ii break which is a fridaee. ii went out wiif one group of friends. the brighten up my daee. they make miiee laugh like a madd person. hahas!~
- fifth daee. nothing much lesson per normal. and the lesson is boring. hahas!~
- weekends. nothiin lorr. went out wiif my friends denn jiu go home. can said that is a sadd daee. ii'm so sadd, tiired that daee.
- sixth daee. lesson per normal till 12. denn lunch denn got a dance fiesta follow by Ice-Breaking activities. and is stupid larr. after onw week lerr den got ice breaking game. and the dance fiesta is nice. hahas!~ denn go home!~
- seventh daee. lesson per normal. and it's still 5. so tiired.
- eighth daee. a damn CB, FUCK-UP daee!~. wow. damn angry lorr. ii went to confront one of my classmate. cause ii honestly say. ii donn like the way she do the project. cause at first we are in the smae room. and she is like so rush and blur. ii got to explain three time wad my another frend trying to tell herr. and ii also donn like herr. but the people who know miiee well. even if ii donn like a person. ii still will be frend wiif her. and even people tok badd thing abt herr ii also will angry. denn my group got seven people. but is too bigg. the maximum is 6 people per group. denn ii was like wanted to think of a solution to seperate the group without hurting anyone. but before ii would do anything or say anythin. this gurl. come infront of miiee and say "if you donn like miiee jus say. donn beat around the bush" wow. ii damn angry lorr. fuck lorr. ii just walk out of the class and shout vulgar. is damn CB lorr. denn my frend ask miiee wad happen. ii told them. and denn we went confront wiif that gurl. wow. ii nicely tok to herr. and ii control not to shout. but she's the one shouted first. damn. people tok nicely denn she like that. the reason ii donn wann to change class any more is because of they all. who asked miiee to stay. and they should know it cerii well. but why? why make miiee think that ii have made a wrong choice? why is god making fun of miiee. sadd. ii cried while confronting herr. cause ii told herr. from pri sch till now. ii donn have a true frend. when ii wann to find people to tok to. no one is there. when ii wann to find a shoulder to lend on or a pair of ears. no one. when frends betray or backstabb miiee. they said sorry but they did it again again and again. ii'm totally hurt by them. since denn there's no "sorry" is my dictionary. this gurl. who make miiee so angry. post in the blogg saying that ii dinn admit the wrong ii made. CB. is she the one who dinn admit lorr. why say miiee.
hey gurl listen carefully larr. if you still not happy denn come find miiee. we still can tok. donn use sms or tok thru phone to settle. ii donn like. mondaee we wan to confront you. but my frend said its settle and you delete away the post. but ii tell you. ii still not happy. cause ii will read the post on mon which print by sylvester. you said that we childish. denn you leii?. donn push the blame on other people. when there's fault in both of us. every single one got fault. and so you yourslef also childish. and you lied to us when we decide to trust you. but you break the trust. remeber is you break the trust. ii thought that there will be isn't any problem when ii said let's put everything behide. and ii did. but you spold my weekends okay. by putting the post. ii know is ur rights. but wad ii'm not happy wiif. is that if you are still not happy. jus tell miiee. donn give miiee any irritating look or tok behide my back. now is like everything settle. and you said you one to put everything behide and strat a brand new daee on mon. okay ii respect you. and please respect miiee too. if ii find out that you still tok behide my back. you will get it from miiee!~ donn be a hypo.
- the rest of the daee. same old thing. so bo liao. haiis. thought that it's settle lerr. but now like that. damn fuck sia. haiis. donn wish to continue lerr.
UR NAME HERE
6:46 AM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
this post gonna be a long. so is up to you whether you wanna read anot lorr. this post is about my cornet section outing and 3daees 2nites in genting. haiis:( ii hope that ii won't cry when ii'm typing this post. read it and you know why.
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this three daees past super past. and ii treasure it alot. second daee is the daee ii will treasure it the most. ii love the second daee. it just because of something. and of course this daee is the last daee of 2006. and we celebrate wiif all the people in genting. we were all gather outside genting highlands hotel for countdown and fire works. damn nice man. ii super love fireworks. cause it's so beautiful. although fireworks only last for a few mins. but within the few mins. it have already make verii one high and happy. ii smile thru when the firworks is on. above are all the picws ii take. and of course ii noe ii'm vain. hees(: there's a pic ii love it most. it the pic wiif a guy. hey. donn misunderstand. he jus my cousin. a most important cousin of mine. cause he make miiee stay on stronger. and wiif the promise which is. he will be there for miie whenever ii'm sadd. ii'm happii enough. ii'm jus a simple gurl but ii have a complicated mind. only my this cousin korr understand miiee. know wad ii mean or wann in jus a simple action or words. in my life. ii'm sadd everydaee. donn see miiee everydaee laugh laugh laugh. ii'm jus simply to stay strong and smile and laugh only. at nite de wo. is jus simply to tiired lerr. at nite de wo. won't laugh won't smile lerr. jus simply tears. cause is damn tiired. ii have no much strength lerr. haiis. korr ii will also remember the promise ii made to you. ii promise ii won't do any silly or stupid things de. ii vivien promise. and ii won't forget de. you musn't for get the promise you made to miiee too yarr. ii will place that nite deep in my heart and remember it forever. korr ii love you forever(:
ii shall start wiif the cornet section outing. 29 dec 2006 - pics first.
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that's all. there's more. but is wiif sze ying. haiis:( went out wiif them. actually we are suppose to go east coast park to cycle. but because of something. everything change. we ended up at orchard watching movie. after movie. ii dinn went for dinner wiif. no mood + ii got to go to one of my uncle funeral. and the next daee ii going genting lerr. this genting trip ii can said that is happii and sadd. cause something happen.
genting trip - pics first. hahas!~
this three daees past super past. and ii treasure it alot. second daee is the daee ii will treasure it the most. ii love the second daee. it just because of something. and of course this daee is the last daee of 2006. and we celebrate wiif all the people in genting. we were all gather outside genting highlands hotel for countdown and fire works. damn nice man. ii super love fireworks. cause it's so beautiful. although fireworks only last for a few mins. but within the few mins. it have already make verii one high and happy. ii smile thru when the firworks is on. above are all the picws ii take. and of course ii noe ii'm vain. hees(: there's a pic ii love it most. it the pic wiif a guy. hey. donn misunderstand. he jus my cousin. a most important cousin of mine. cause he make miiee stay on stronger. and wiif the promise which is. he will be there for miie whenever ii'm sadd. ii'm happii enough. ii'm jus a simple gurl but ii have a complicated mind. only my this cousin korr understand miiee. know wad ii mean or wann in jus a simple action or words. in my life. ii'm sadd everydaee. donn see miiee everydaee laugh laugh laugh. ii'm jus simply to stay strong and smile and laugh only. at nite de wo. is jus simply to tiired lerr. at nite de wo. won't laugh won't smile lerr. jus simply tears. cause is damn tiired. ii have no much strength lerr. haiis. korr ii will also remember the promise ii made to you. ii promise ii won't do any silly or stupid things de. ii vivien promise. and ii won't forget de. you musn't for get the promise you made to miiee too yarr. ii will place that nite deep in my heart and remember it forever. korr ii love you forever(:
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5:57 AM